The Turning Point

I remember this moment so well. The path didn’t go as I expected. My life was spiraling out of control. I didn’t even know I was so overwhelmed until I literally could not function. I couldn’t get out of bed or take care of my children. Joy seemed so far away, I was just hoping for the ability to survive. This is the signal your at your first turning point.

I began reaching for ways to manage the stress. I found regular yoga, acupuncture, reiki and many other holistic practices that could support me at showing up in the life I created. With discipline and focus I began to feel a sense of survival, a ton of contentment, moments of thriving and glimpses of joy.

Some of you will hit the next turning point and it holds a very different quality then the first one. Maybe it’s divinely orchestrated, but I think it’s more than that. It’s a moment where your Spirit calls you deeper into the human experience. Where you choose to walk towards the pain and darkness that you have been working to keep at bay or manage. All your years (maybe decades) of building a tool box and healing your nervous system has prepared you to take the journey into a cocoon, into the mystery, the darkness of the complete unknown. This one doesn't force you, it's like you have a choice.

You will spend a great deal of time building the capacity to survive the cocoon. I will be honest, some will not. Many others will not even step into it in this life. You might feel like you’re going to lose everything. Your job, your family, your stability. It might actually be true. In the cocoon, you will have to let it all die so you can transform into the version of you that you have never met! It may sound cliche, but the catipiller truly does not know it’s becoming the butterfly.

This transformation is not about functioning better in the life you’ve created. It’s not about achieving a better identity or even finding your place in the world. It’s about a willingness risk all so you can uncover a new version of yourself. You can’t possibly know the journey of the butterfly until you’ve allowed yourself to transform completely.

As a seeker, know that you will never be healed by anyone other than yourself. If you are lucky, you will find the right tools that ground you in your body and support you at navigating in extreme stress and darkness.  Once you are comfortable with your surfing skills — life will actually feel more joyful because you trust in your own abilities of transformation. At this point you can enter any cocoon without resistance or struggle.

One of my favorite tools in my arsenal was developing a clear communication with my Higher Self. I needed a set dialogue for calling upon my own wisdom for support and guidance through the worst of the storms! There is an aspect of you that can support your transformation, but we have to hone this connection because there are a lot of blocks between your mind and true guidance. Becoming your own Guru is not the easy path, but the alternative choice is forfeiting your creative energy to something outside of you.

This is why I created my Spiritual immersion program. You can learn the skills and processes I use daily to connect with Higher guidance, but also have a partner to support your cocoon moment. Evolution is inviting us to fully embody our Soul expression and create the life we choose, rather than relying on a guru or believing some karmic curse is determining your physical reality. Are you answering that call?

Looking to start a practice using a pendulum? Get started with my Intro to Pendulum course.